Still breathing

Since I last counted down, 22 days has passed. Now I am left with roughly 57 days till I start my IVF cycle. WOW!!! Time sure fly by. Well not as if I didnt notice. I did. There are times I feel as if the clock is crawling. But with work right on my trail, I have very little time to breathe and think about other things. Planning hubby's birthday celebration has also taken some time out of my free time. I love what I had planned for hubby. I mean yes it is taking a sum of money out from my savings but since we do not have anything plan as per now I guess it was okay for me to splurge a little to pend on us. This will give us some US time... Time rejuvenate, time to rest and relax.

I will let you know of the detailed birthday celebrations after it is done coz I know there is a possibility hubby is reading this site of mine. Hubby's birthday falls on the 25th of February. His celebration has started from the weekend. We went out on a date on Saturday Night. We went to catch a movie at Lido. Caught the following movie:


Nice romantic show. We both loved it. Before that had dinner at Royal Plaza on Scotts. NIce ambience. Lovely food. Hubby enjoyed himself. So did I.

Since his birthday is on a weekday and I can't get away, I have planned for something else this coming weekend. I am so excited. Can't wait for the weekends to come. I am sure we have a hell of a wonderful time...

On the TTC front, nothing much is happening, just that my next period is due on my hubby's birthday. How ironical!!! After which, I will be waiting for the dreaded AF visit the following month and everything will take on speed from then on. I am still hoping for some miracles that I don't even have to wait for the next AF visit. Perhaps... Maybe by some miracle I will get pregnant by then. Hahaha... There I go again hoping for something that I roughly know might not happen but who knows? Till my next entry (which I seriously don't know when). Have a good week ahead people...

Symptoms/Side effects

It is 10 more days till my next period. But I know it will not be coming once again. After the 10 days, I will be counting down to another 28 more days hoping that AF comes to visit then. If it does then I can start counting to my 21st day to once again start on my lucrin shots. Talking about lucrin. It has not been a good partnership.

I hope during the lucrin shots later I won't be feeling as much symptom as I am feeling right now. I guess it depends on the amount I have to take.

Current symptoms: Bloated tummy (my students asked whether I am pregnant- I wish I could say yes), hot flushes, weight gain that is hard to lose, the need to pee very often, tiredness, sleepiness.

Hope time will fly. I can't wait. I wish to be able to feel my babies in me and 9 months later hold them in my arms. I can wish can't I?

HAPPY VALENTINE'S DAY

To all the readers of my blog, here is wishing you a very Happy Valentine's Day. May you enjoy today with your loved ones. I am currently enjoying myself just waking up late in the hands of my beloved hubby. We are going out soon. We are going to attend some carnival. After which we are going out for dinner to celebrate my mum's birthday. So exciting!!!

Will write more when I get back. There is nothing much happening in the last week or so except for feeling really bloated. Hot flushes thank god is under control. Not as bad. Currently waiting for this cycle to end. After that count down time. Not sure how I am gonna inform the management when I start to take leave often. Not sure whether I should let them in on what I am going through but then again, being new that's probably not a good idea. I am trying to time my treatment as much as possible so that it won't affect my work.

I have roughly about 66 days to think about it. That's about 2 months. Should give me ample time to think. Okaylah enough ranting. Time for me to go get ready. Mum is coming to fetch us soon.

Last shot!!!

Hooray, today was a good day after all. It didnt start off good at all. First my Monday time table stinks lah. No breather at all. Then came the students' attitude. Wah I truly feel like slapping him in the face. The attitude he shows is just ridiculous. N he calls himself a student. But after recess, after I have calm myself down with some prayers taught by my mum, he actually came to me along the corridor and apologise and promise to be a good boy. Strange but okay.

This was after i shed a tear during recess quietly at my desk. Well who else can I share my "problems" with. Here I have no close friends to go to. Neither do I trust anyone much. Well... Let's not dwell on the past. As I was talking to mama today, she mentioned we must learn to be appreciative of what we have. In this case, being here, I have more free time after school and thus I am able to leave as early as 3pm and can go proceed with my treatment without having to take time off or leave or MC. Just like today.

Went to school as per normal. Then mama came to fetch me at 3pm. We made our way to KK hospital. Took a while to find a parking lot. Then the queue at the pharmacy was a nightmare. Luckily we managed to get to the clinic by 4.15pm. Waited for a bit and got Nurse Catherine to do my final Lucrin shot before I start on my IVF journey once again. This is getting so exciting. I can't wait and I have been counting down. I have also conscientiously try to not bring work home during the weekdays and to spend a little more time for myself.

With this last shot of Lucrin, I seem to be having double the dosage of symptoms: Hot Flushes, High Temperature, Mood Swings, Bloatedness, lower abdomen cramping and many more little symptoms that I feel is too small to note.

Currently during my free time (whatever I am left with after my work) I am reading the last book of the Twilight Series - Breaking Dawn.


The book kind of consist 4 in 1 book. From Bella's point of view as well as Jacob. The book is so intriguing. I regret not reading it earlier but better late than never right?

I am also into another craze - Diner Dash. I thought I was the only one playing but according to hubby some of his friends had to give up using the computer coz their wife wanted to play Diner Dash on comp. Haha... N hubby said luckily I have my own comp. It is a fun game. SO many stages and it really puts your mind in alert mode.

Okaylah enough entry for today. I am going back to relaxing mode... Till my next entry!!!

One down one more to go

4 days ago I was supposed to be getting my menses. But thanks to the suppression AF didnt come. Can you hear the hint of sarcasm there? AF has always be prompt with her visit. The only way it was going to be kept away is by suppressing it.So yes, for the first time in my 27years of life, AF has gone missing thanks to Lucrin. One month missing, one more month to go. I am due for another injection on the 9th of February - that's 8 days away and according to my ticker countdown, I am 11 days away from ovulation. Hmmm... Won't that then be too late to suppress my hormones? Well I am sure the Dr knows what she's doing.

I am just praying that I will still be able to handle the menopausal symptoms. Last month it has been tough. Hubby has been at the end of some of it but most of the time it was my students. Blame them for being so ridiculously lazy. Not only will they not listen when you are teaching, they won't even do their homework. N worse of all how rude some of these kids are. Their sentence are punctuated with the F-word. What is the world coming to? What are their parents doing? When I see these kids, I think twice about having my own children but then again it is all about the nurture. If you do it right from the beginning, I am sure with God's willing, they will turn out just fine.

Back to my symptoms. Damn the weather has been hot. The hot flushes is making me ridiculously hot in the face. It is so hot that it hurts. A few days ago, I started having slight twinges and cramping in my lower abdomen. Nothing to really worry about I guess coz I have had worse crampings in the past. I have been having the runs too. It has been very watery. Not sure whether it was something I ate or what. But I hope it will improve. I am planning to not waste any MCs unnecessarily. I have better plans for them in the near future.

With a weekly housekeeper, I have more time for ME time. With my lessons preparations for the next 3 weeks done, I have more time for an entry as well as to use the computer. I am currently reading the following...


My sis has gotten me hook to this. She has lent me this book for about 3 weeks now. I have just started reading a few days ago and I can't seem to put it down. It is keeping my mind off TTC issues at least for now.

Since February is the month of LOVE, I will be ending my entries for this month with banners dedicated to my loved ones especially hubby. Thank you for all the love and support you have showered me. You have been my pillar of strength and the love of my life.