5th Wedding Anniversary

Today marks our 5th wedding anniversary. Hubby didn't want me to cook so we just ordered pizza in and after which we went to catch a late night show - The Time Traveller's Wife. Nice story line but it seems to be cut short.

Anyway, I would like to take this opportunity to thank my hubby for being the best hhubby ever to me. For listening to my rant, for tolerating my mood swings, for giving me his shoulder to cry on, for supporting me financially and emotionally and last but not least just for being him. He is one strong man who has always believed and who has always had FAITH. I wish I had half of his strength and faith.

To you my dear hubby, I love you. Thank you for everything. My wish for us is that may we have many more happy years to come. N hopefully in the near future we will have our own kids who will be a symbol of our strong love for each other.

18 kids and counting...

I have started watching this show on Dicovery Travel and Living - Human Story. The story about the Dugg.ers Family who currently has 18 kids. Boy am I envious. Not that I want 18 kids but the fact that she is able to have kids like at the click of a finger whil here I am struggling to even have one.

But the good thing about this family - at least from what I read they are currently debt free, they did everything on their own (even built their own steel house), the kids are all organized, had a buddy system to have the mum with the household chores and parents learnt along the way with the kids as they homeschooled them. AMAZING!!!

Did you know that they did not have kids right away? They were on the pills for 4 years after which she stopped and they got pregnant. After which she decided to go back on the pills but somehow by miracle, she got pregnant but suffered a miscarriage and they believed it was the pill. After that they started praying and asked God to give them as many kids as He wants and here they are... 18 kids and counting...

Why am I writing? No apparent reason. I am just amazed and at awe how the mother is able to cope and handle all 18 kids without any help except from her own children. I am also amazed at how she managed her finances. They did mention in a site somewhere that they didn't spend more than $2000 to feed everyone.

As for me I am just counting to number 1. Hopefully soon enough and once the One has arrived probably number 2, 3 and 4 will tag along. Yup you see that right. I am still hoping and praying to have 4 kids. But we shall see wait and see for this first treatment. Hopefully everything goes well. 9 days to go...

Appreciate your mum and MIL the same...

I have always been talking about my mum. How strong a woman she is and how she has sacrificed so much for the family. Not often do I mention about my Mother In Law. I know how some woman out there has not been blessed with a good MIL. But for me, thankfully, I have been blessed and is very lucky to have a very caring, understanding and loving PILs.

Today me and hubby went to their place. She cooked a wonderful lunch for us to enjoy. We had a wonderful time conversing, telling each other what's going on in our life. She has never mentioned, not even once how much she wants a grandkid. But today she told us how she went to the Keramat Habib Noh, prayed and was asked by a religious leader there what are wishes and who is she praying for. N she told the religious leader that she prayed that she will have a grandchild soon. She had wanted a grandchild for a long time.

I really wanted to hug her at that moment but me being me, is not good at showing my emotion. So yup in silence, I thank her.

I truly hope her prayers and wishes will come true with this upcoming procedure. I am putting my 110% effort and emotions into this. Once I start this there is no going back. My heart and soul will be in it. If it works good for me. If it doesn't (touch wood), I am hoping/praying that I am strong enough to overcome that obstacles. 10 more days to go till my lucrin injections. Hoping time will pass by faster.

Still surviving and counting

I am still here. Have just been busy with work. End of term before the one week break thus need to tie up some loose ends.

Today I just happen to look at this 'dusty' blog of mine and I realise something. Could this be it? COuld it happen without any help? It will definitely be a miracle if it does happen. Thinking positive...

If things are right, starting tomorrow shall be my 2 week wait. Haha... Not as if I am putting much hope into it after almost 48 months. But like I said things could happen. N I will put my faith and belief in anything at this moment.

Despite whatever hubby and I still "tried". If AF decides to drop by on the 25th of March as counted, then no more trying naturally. Either way, I am thinking positive.

Oh one more thing, I have made plans to meet with a friend I have made online. She has succeeded in her journey and I am looking forward to hearing her stories. Perhaps she can share with me all her experiences so that I can better prepared. She is so sweet as to take leave on that day... Will write more soon enough...

Still breathing

Since I last counted down, 22 days has passed. Now I am left with roughly 57 days till I start my IVF cycle. WOW!!! Time sure fly by. Well not as if I didnt notice. I did. There are times I feel as if the clock is crawling. But with work right on my trail, I have very little time to breathe and think about other things. Planning hubby's birthday celebration has also taken some time out of my free time. I love what I had planned for hubby. I mean yes it is taking a sum of money out from my savings but since we do not have anything plan as per now I guess it was okay for me to splurge a little to pend on us. This will give us some US time... Time rejuvenate, time to rest and relax.

I will let you know of the detailed birthday celebrations after it is done coz I know there is a possibility hubby is reading this site of mine. Hubby's birthday falls on the 25th of February. His celebration has started from the weekend. We went out on a date on Saturday Night. We went to catch a movie at Lido. Caught the following movie:


Nice romantic show. We both loved it. Before that had dinner at Royal Plaza on Scotts. NIce ambience. Lovely food. Hubby enjoyed himself. So did I.

Since his birthday is on a weekday and I can't get away, I have planned for something else this coming weekend. I am so excited. Can't wait for the weekends to come. I am sure we have a hell of a wonderful time...

On the TTC front, nothing much is happening, just that my next period is due on my hubby's birthday. How ironical!!! After which, I will be waiting for the dreaded AF visit the following month and everything will take on speed from then on. I am still hoping for some miracles that I don't even have to wait for the next AF visit. Perhaps... Maybe by some miracle I will get pregnant by then. Hahaha... There I go again hoping for something that I roughly know might not happen but who knows? Till my next entry (which I seriously don't know when). Have a good week ahead people...

Symptoms/Side effects

It is 10 more days till my next period. But I know it will not be coming once again. After the 10 days, I will be counting down to another 28 more days hoping that AF comes to visit then. If it does then I can start counting to my 21st day to once again start on my lucrin shots. Talking about lucrin. It has not been a good partnership.

I hope during the lucrin shots later I won't be feeling as much symptom as I am feeling right now. I guess it depends on the amount I have to take.

Current symptoms: Bloated tummy (my students asked whether I am pregnant- I wish I could say yes), hot flushes, weight gain that is hard to lose, the need to pee very often, tiredness, sleepiness.

Hope time will fly. I can't wait. I wish to be able to feel my babies in me and 9 months later hold them in my arms. I can wish can't I?