Biggest worry has come true

Sorry for not writing for a while now. Been a little busy with assignments and finding a new job. Trying to find something totally different to do. More in the line of counselling which I majored in Uni. Been a month since I sent in my resumes but till now no call or reply. Getting a little worried. Once end of October comes, I will have no more assignments as students will be taking a break from school thus none will be going for tuition. No assignment means no income. So I have exactly 2 months to get myself an interview. I guess I need to be a little more aggressive in my job search.

But that is not my biggest worry. If you have been reading my site in the past month, my worry is what if my brother in law's wife who were married in end March 2009 will be pregnant first before me. N true enough, God do want to test us more specifically ME. Yesterday, I learnt from my mother in law that she is currently 18 weeks pregnant. She got pregnant immediately after the wedding. In fact she didnt even realise she was pregnant coz she was kind of bleeding/spotting throughout the four months. *SIGH*

SO yeah, that's my life story for now. 5 years into my wedding and I still have nothing to show for. N she is into her 5th month anniversary and she is 18 weeks pregnant. OUCH! What a stab in the heart. So I will once again go and lie in a corner and mourn my life AGAIN! Nothing much to report on the TTC front. This Friday - 4th of Sept is my 5th wedding anniversary and what an irony that will also be the day I am expecting AF to come. I am hoping and praying for a miracle but deep down inside I just don't feel it anymore. The closest I got to getting pregnant was my last failed IVF. So will see about the rest. About 1 month plus to my next fresh cycle. So looking forward to being injected again. Can you hear my sarcasm?

Finally...

After 39 days, AF finally made her appearance. Gosh!!! I was starting to wonder what was going on. However something was different about her visit this time around. There was no fan fare. Just quitely knocked on my door this late morning.

NO CRAMPS

NO BACKACHE

NO PIMPLE BREAKOUT

NO MOOD SWINGS

NO SORE BOOBS

Wow!!! I am amazed. Could be due to the traditional medication I am currently taking. If it is, although it didn't result in a pregnancy as I had hoped for (the girl who sold me the medicine said that it took at least 3 months for some couple) but at least it has showed a little result. No pain in my AF. The feeling of it is amazing. Hubby is glad too. Coz if not every month on my first day I'll be cringing in pain and the week that is leading to it I will be having bad headache, backache and bad mood swings. I am gonna ensure I take the medicine on a more regular basis if it is gonna keep all that and my endometriosis in checked too. That is all the update I have for now.

To all my lovely ladies here, Stacey, Nicole, Flower, Dagny, Tammy etc pls take care. I have been reading and following just had no energy to write a post or comment. My apologies. I have been down with fever, cough and runny nose. The haze here is not helping my situation either.

Stacey, hope everything is going alright with the treatment. NIcole hope you are recovering well from the surgery. Flower, I am looking forward to your update with regards to scan.

Day 32 and counting

Like my title says, it is CD 32 and counting. The dreaded visitor decided to perhaps give me a miss this month. SHe is perhaps retaliating to all those hormones injected in me in my last failed cycle or perhaps... I shall try not to put too much hope and think too much into it. Perhaps just like some of the other ladies who have had a failed cycle, AF seems to get a little haywire the month after. Hubby asked today aren't I worried? Hmmm... Should I? Either I am or I am not. If I am then great, if not then it is okay coz I wasn't really banking on this cycle remember... Just trying naturally and having fun at the same time.

By the way, the purpose of me writing this post is to show you all some more pics of my recent trip to a nearby island in Malaysia.

That's hubby is the sea trying to feed the fish

Pics of the corals I took while we were snorkelling with someone's feet in it.

We were lucky to be able to catch a glimpse of this shy sea turtle. Gorgeous isn't it?

More corals

I so missed the free feeling of swimming in the open sea. I have mentioned to hubby that we are going to more beaches in the near future for our vacation...