AF makes it's exit

Pls note this entry could be a little TMI. So skip it if you don't wish to read about the dreaded visitor AF. After 8 days, AF makes its exit. The first 2 days the cramp got a little unbearable and I had to pop 2 panadols. Not as if I like to do that but it was unbearable. After which the cramp went away. The only thing is this time around was very heavy for almost 5 days. Usually by 5 days I am done with AF visit. N this visit is filled with clots. Huge clots. Everytime I see myself passing out clots either in the toilet bowl or on my pad, tears will start to well up in my eyes. I could feel that those are my kids that I am passing out.

Some of you might ask how I am doing? Well I didnt really reach a depression stage just a little sad. Much sadder than I thought I would be. Perhaps the money spent and the emotions that I had put in into this cycle. I had really wanted this to work but I guess Allah knows better. N this time, it just wasn't my time yet.

With AF making its exit of course something else came back into our life... If u know what I mean... After almost 4 weeks of putting it on hold, thanks to one of the requirement of 2WW, it began again the moment AF disappeared. Hehehe... :) for the first time in a very long time, I don't feel that it was chore. Why did I feel like it was a chore back then? Everytime we hit the sack, we will be thinking about choosing the day prior to ovulation, on ovulation and a day after. Our main purpose is to hopefully make a baby. But instead of baby making, we have decided to turn it back to love making. We are not gonna use the ovulation kit, not gonna do it only near ovulation but do it anytime and anywhere we feel like it. Hahah... It makes me feel like a young teenager. Not as if I have done this as a teenager but it makes me feel very young. Yeah I am happy!!!

Okay will be back when I have things to report... Have a great week ahead everyone.

Day 11 - 15 - Fertile Period = Baby Dancing

Since I am not down for any Fertility Treatment this month, we have to leave it to nature. Leaving it to nature means we have to work super doubly hard. At the same time, we have to put a little more trust in God's plan for us. Not that we have not been trusting Him. It is just that sometimes, our trust in Him is tested. Some months worse than others.

This week marks our Fertile Period. So yeah... Baby Dancing on the way. Seriously speaking, I am actually looking forward to it ( not that I don't look forward to it before). But this is a little special. You know why? Becoz the need for a positive outcome is not really there coz we know our situation and we know what is possible and what is not. Usually Fertile Period means Baby Making means Stressful Time Scheduling. But this month, we can plan for perhaps something more romantic... Something to remind us of our honeymoon times. Hmmmm.... Long weekend coming next week. Moreover, school is coming to an end and there is not so much work. So less stress.

What shall we do??? Suggestion my friends??? Perhaps a short getaway for the 2 of us will do us good especially before the IVF procedure.