I am back!!! Why so late you ask? Nope no good news yet... If there is it wouldn't have been a miserable festive season. Well AF decided to knock on the door on my best friend's wedding-18th Dec 2005. So I told hubby I am going to the gynae even if he is not. I called the recommended gynae and booked an appointment. At first hubby wanted to follow but then because of work I had to go alone. I was scared and worried but to cut it short the appointment was not as scary as i thought it would be.
To fast forward the timing- 7th January I went for my second appointment. Results are out. Alhamdulillah everything was fine. But then she turned to hubby... I would like to keep the details of the results private. Well let's just say "the soldiers" needed a little push.
My spirits was still high coz i know we might be one of those who might take a little longer to conceive and have a baby of our own. But high spirits took a dive yesterday. My best friend who got married on the 18th Dec, she sms me yesterday to inform me that she is currently expecting. WAT!!!!!!!
Don't get me wrong. I was happy for her. But at the same time I am green with envy. How else do you expect me to react? Here I am one year plus into my wedding and still no results. And as for her it's only a month and she is bearing the fruits of her labour.
Maybe it's true that it is not my turn yet.. But when? Hubby tried to cheer me up yesterday but it was no help. i thought what he did was to make it worse. He said,"If you do conceive this month, can you imagine, your delivery date might be very close to each other." Stop giving me the IFs... What IF it does not happen? Then what? I don't think I am ready for another disappointment. At least not for now. It is really tiring you know. I can actually picture myself in her shoes. If I was able to.... my kid would be turning 7 months now... Yes I wish but no... It is not gonna happen. Not so soon I believe.
To fast forward the timing- 7th January I went for my second appointment. Results are out. Alhamdulillah everything was fine. But then she turned to hubby... I would like to keep the details of the results private. Well let's just say "the soldiers" needed a little push.
My spirits was still high coz i know we might be one of those who might take a little longer to conceive and have a baby of our own. But high spirits took a dive yesterday. My best friend who got married on the 18th Dec, she sms me yesterday to inform me that she is currently expecting. WAT!!!!!!!
Don't get me wrong. I was happy for her. But at the same time I am green with envy. How else do you expect me to react? Here I am one year plus into my wedding and still no results. And as for her it's only a month and she is bearing the fruits of her labour.
Maybe it's true that it is not my turn yet.. But when? Hubby tried to cheer me up yesterday but it was no help. i thought what he did was to make it worse. He said,"If you do conceive this month, can you imagine, your delivery date might be very close to each other." Stop giving me the IFs... What IF it does not happen? Then what? I don't think I am ready for another disappointment. At least not for now. It is really tiring you know. I can actually picture myself in her shoes. If I was able to.... my kid would be turning 7 months now... Yes I wish but no... It is not gonna happen. Not so soon I believe.
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