3 days of May has pass. I am not looking forward to May as much as I was looking forward to the months after. I mean. first and foremost, May will be the month when I start my injectibles. I believe I have mention more than once about my NOT so good relationship with injections. Have never liked it and I believe never will. But being a woman undergoing fertility treatment, injections is a must. So well... 12 more days till I start my lucrin injection. Just sitting around, waiting stinks. I hope the days will pass by faster.
In addition May is also the month where everywhere you turn you will be reminded how much less of a woman you are. Yes you are right if you guess Mother's Day. Next weekend, every mother around the world will be celebrating Mother's Day with their children. Me? After 4 years, it is still a lonely weekend. Of course, being the a daughter, I will be celebrating it with my beloved mum and family. Let's talk about my mother.
My mum is a very strong lady. In every sense of the word. She got married to my dad in 1980. She wasn't really the choice daughter in law. My grandma had wanted to marry my dad off to someone in the family but my dad being my dad, chose my mother. She had to face criticisms from all around her. But she was patient. When I was born, relatives commented about me. They said, "hey look, she is as dark as the mother." Well yes, I look more like my mother. My father look more chinese. My two younger siblings followed my dad. But I never feel that I was at a disadvantage looking more tan than my siblings. My mum was the one who supported me when relatives looked down on me and now when relatives talked behind my back about my infertility, she is always there with a rebuttal. She is always there with a shoulder for me to cry on. I truly appreciate her presence. Mum, THANKS.
Let's pray and hope, this is the last time I will be celebrating Mother's Day alone. Hopefully, by this time next year, I have kid/s of my own.
In addition May is also the month where everywhere you turn you will be reminded how much less of a woman you are. Yes you are right if you guess Mother's Day. Next weekend, every mother around the world will be celebrating Mother's Day with their children. Me? After 4 years, it is still a lonely weekend. Of course, being the a daughter, I will be celebrating it with my beloved mum and family. Let's talk about my mother.
My mum is a very strong lady. In every sense of the word. She got married to my dad in 1980. She wasn't really the choice daughter in law. My grandma had wanted to marry my dad off to someone in the family but my dad being my dad, chose my mother. She had to face criticisms from all around her. But she was patient. When I was born, relatives commented about me. They said, "hey look, she is as dark as the mother." Well yes, I look more like my mother. My father look more chinese. My two younger siblings followed my dad. But I never feel that I was at a disadvantage looking more tan than my siblings. My mum was the one who supported me when relatives looked down on me and now when relatives talked behind my back about my infertility, she is always there with a rebuttal. She is always there with a shoulder for me to cry on. I truly appreciate her presence. Mum, THANKS.
Let's pray and hope, this is the last time I will be celebrating Mother's Day alone. Hopefully, by this time next year, I have kid/s of my own.
2 comments:
I really hope you don't have to do another May without your baby.
Hang in there, June is coming!
xoxo
Thanks dear.
Appreciate that. I guess I was just letting of some steam. It has been a very long journey. Journey that I hope to have a destination. Destination that is within my grasp.
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