Just to let you all know. Met my gynae, Dr Sadhana today. Appointment was at 11.55am. Arrived at 11am, had breakfast with mum and hubby first at the food court and guess who came to say hi... My onine forum friend, SIERRA79. I was so happy to see her. First and foremost, I didnt even realise it was her. I was chatting away with mum and hubby, laughing away as usual. Then came this small petite lady at my side and said hi. She is damn small in person ok. Dear, I am so happy to see you today. I believe, this friendship will be strengthen just by the fact of what we went through in the last 2 months.
Back to my appointment. Dr Sadhana was so nice okay. She was empathising with me. In fact she said, she was hoping I would get a positive result. In addition she also doesnt know why it doesnt work coz my embryo was looking very gd. She was sad for me. I told her if she was sad, I was even sadder. N she held my hand. I was amazed that I didnt cry today. I guess I had cried enough the week it failed. I am ready now to stand up again. I told her how much I have cried for 3 straight days when it failed. She said she was really sorry. Everything was textbook perfect. I guess my womb wasn't. Or it just wasn't my time. Let me say, I am really impressed with Dr Sadhana's human's touch. I know how busy the clinic can be yet she took time to be in my shoes and to understand my inner feelings.
At first she wanted to increase my dosage to 350iu in the next round but then, she said increasing the dosage will not increase the number of eggs. It will just cause the eggs to grow at a faster rate. So she changed at the last minute. Dr Sadhana suggested I try the short protocol in October. The short protocol means less injections and at the same time it is supposed to grow more eggs for me. As for my womb, she said during my laprascopy there wasn't any scar tissue so that shouldn't have prevented implantation. My womb lining at 10mm was just nice too. Currently I am feeling very positive with the traditional medication I am taking. My body somehow feels lighter just after 2 weeks of taking it. Hopefully the month of Ramadhan will bear me fruits. If not... a short protocol is waiting for me after Hari Raya.
I hope in this 3 months my womb will be more healthy, lining will be thicker to prepare for implantation and right at the back of my mind, perhaps "strike" naturally.
By the way for those who are not sure what a Short Protocol is. In October when my period come (tentatively 24th October), I will have to give KKIVF a call. Then on Day 2 I will have to go down and do a scan to determine that there is no cysts etc. After which I will be starting my Puregon. Once my follicles reach more than 13mm, I will be given injection to surpressed ovulation. N the rest is the same as the Long cycle.
After counting, I realised, my Day 2 could possibly fall on a Sunday. What happens then? Zaza if you are reading this pls help me clear this doubt. Oh well!!!, I guess I will get to it when the time comes. For now, I am not going to think about ovulation, fertile period etc. We are just gonna go with the flow. In fact it was only today when I was counting for my October cycle that I realise my ovulation date had come and gone. In fact today is Day 16. Time seems to fly by faster when you are not counting to a Blood Test or something. The short protocol would means lesser injection and shorter period to ER/ET. I am really praying, praying very hard... Nature will happen and I don't have to go through this emotional roller coaster ride again.
Back to my appointment. Dr Sadhana was so nice okay. She was empathising with me. In fact she said, she was hoping I would get a positive result. In addition she also doesnt know why it doesnt work coz my embryo was looking very gd. She was sad for me. I told her if she was sad, I was even sadder. N she held my hand. I was amazed that I didnt cry today. I guess I had cried enough the week it failed. I am ready now to stand up again. I told her how much I have cried for 3 straight days when it failed. She said she was really sorry. Everything was textbook perfect. I guess my womb wasn't. Or it just wasn't my time. Let me say, I am really impressed with Dr Sadhana's human's touch. I know how busy the clinic can be yet she took time to be in my shoes and to understand my inner feelings.
At first she wanted to increase my dosage to 350iu in the next round but then, she said increasing the dosage will not increase the number of eggs. It will just cause the eggs to grow at a faster rate. So she changed at the last minute. Dr Sadhana suggested I try the short protocol in October. The short protocol means less injections and at the same time it is supposed to grow more eggs for me. As for my womb, she said during my laprascopy there wasn't any scar tissue so that shouldn't have prevented implantation. My womb lining at 10mm was just nice too. Currently I am feeling very positive with the traditional medication I am taking. My body somehow feels lighter just after 2 weeks of taking it. Hopefully the month of Ramadhan will bear me fruits. If not... a short protocol is waiting for me after Hari Raya.
I hope in this 3 months my womb will be more healthy, lining will be thicker to prepare for implantation and right at the back of my mind, perhaps "strike" naturally.
By the way for those who are not sure what a Short Protocol is. In October when my period come (tentatively 24th October), I will have to give KKIVF a call. Then on Day 2 I will have to go down and do a scan to determine that there is no cysts etc. After which I will be starting my Puregon. Once my follicles reach more than 13mm, I will be given injection to surpressed ovulation. N the rest is the same as the Long cycle.
After counting, I realised, my Day 2 could possibly fall on a Sunday. What happens then? Zaza if you are reading this pls help me clear this doubt. Oh well!!!, I guess I will get to it when the time comes. For now, I am not going to think about ovulation, fertile period etc. We are just gonna go with the flow. In fact it was only today when I was counting for my October cycle that I realise my ovulation date had come and gone. In fact today is Day 16. Time seems to fly by faster when you are not counting to a Blood Test or something. The short protocol would means lesser injection and shorter period to ER/ET. I am really praying, praying very hard... Nature will happen and I don't have to go through this emotional roller coaster ride again.
2 comments:
Praying that you will get your miracle on your "break cycle" and if not, remember God has a plan B and hopefully the IVF will do the trick. (wink) U r right...just go with the flow. I am hoping that your BFP is just around the corner. Sounds like you have a great RE.
I'm so glad you have an RE that is so wonderful! It sounds like she has really thought out her plan for you, and I'm glad she took time to explain it all to you. October is going to be here before you know it!
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