I am not sure if anyone of you have had this feeling before. A feeling that your husband don't really understand your need to have a child/children. Well when we first got married, we never really thought that we will be one of the statistics. When we still didnt conceive after 1 year, we went to our gynae for a little help. Wasn't really serious then. Just thought that perhaps we are one of those that needs a little more nudge. 1 year turns to 2 and now 4 years down the road we are still travelling along this long lonely road (so I thought). That is until I accidentally stumble upon a portal for women in Singapore who are some like me have been trying but to no avail. In this portal I seek solace knowing that I am not alone.
Okay as my first line has says it. I am starting to feel as if my hubby is not as interested as I am in my seek of having our own kids. I have been doing some reading yet he has just been pretty quiet. He doesn't even ask me the details of the procedure that we are embarking in. Am I just being paranoid? Or are all men like that? They show like they don't care but they actually do...
Okay as my first line has says it. I am starting to feel as if my hubby is not as interested as I am in my seek of having our own kids. I have been doing some reading yet he has just been pretty quiet. He doesn't even ask me the details of the procedure that we are embarking in. Am I just being paranoid? Or are all men like that? They show like they don't care but they actually do...
At some point in the beginning I did feel that my hubby was partly to blame for me still not being pregnant. The results says it all. But after calming myself and thinking it through, it takes two to tango. Anyway, when I first got married I remember saying that we will be together in health and in sickness, in good times and bad. I guess this is the bad time that was mentioned. I no longer blame my husband for our situation. It just that I just feel lonely when he behaves like he don't care.
It doesn't help when every single year when we go visiting for the festive season, my relatives and his will be asking why we are still a twosome and he does nothing but smiles. Help me please!!! I am tired of answering their never ending questions. It will definitely help if you can offer some of your sense of humour.
But since I found this portal, I am a happier person. I am able to clarify my doubts, get encouragement, meet people who are in the cycle or have moved on into the next phase of the cycle. I am happy that I have support.
3 comments:
hugs. i thinkyour hubby cares. just that men and women dont express the same way. i am sure your hubby desire kids. He may not want to openly acknowledge his desire too much for ego or self preservation purpose. I am sure your hubby cares. Just that some men tend to be a bit 'stone'.
body mind soul - Thanks. I guess I was just feeling lonely. I would have wished he was more into this. Now I feel as if I am the one who desperately wants this. Well, I am taking one step at a time. Worse case scenario I have to speak to him I guess.
But today he went out to buy milk for me. So I guess he does care. Hehehe...
I know how it feel, it is the same for me too. but after the failure of my 2nd cycle. He is reading and asking me what are the medical term now. I am sure your hubby cares, just that he dont know where and what to start from. Buying milk is one way too ! :) And get him to be more involved too.
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