I was looking through the pictures and article I have saved in my folders and guess what I came across.
This newspaper article was from some years back I believe. I came across it during the time when I was trying very hard to conceive. I was so annoyed and angry at what some people are willing to do to cover up their bad deeds. I mean YES I was very very angry. Here I am (n so many others out there) trying to be pregnant and there they are (teenagers and even some adults) who can easily get pregnant, just decide to either abort or in this case throw the new born baby down the rubbish chute. What was the mother thinking? Okay maybe that's the problem, she was not thinking.
Even if for one reason or another she can't keep the baby, why can't she put the baby up for adoption? There are o many couples who totally can't have a kid on their own and depend on adoption. Why does she have to throw the baby down the rubbish chute. I am just thinking how the baby was feeling in the last few minutes of his/her life.
Sometimes I also question, why do people who do not want kids can easily get one while people who truly wants one cant have it. Why life is so unfair sometimes? Why are they more deserving than we are? Aren't children God's give to people? So why are they given such important gifts when they have done so many bad things? Why are they given such gifts when they dont want it?
Then again who am I to judge them. Perhaps God feels that I am more worse off than these people are. Perhaps, He feels that I am strong that is why He tests me in such a way. God, please listen to my prayers. I am not as strong as you think I am. I am weak. Haven't you seen or heard the number of times I have cried over your tests? Despite my sometimes wavering faith, I continue to pray to you and continue to believe in the miracles you can create.
This newspaper article was from some years back I believe. I came across it during the time when I was trying very hard to conceive. I was so annoyed and angry at what some people are willing to do to cover up their bad deeds. I mean YES I was very very angry. Here I am (n so many others out there) trying to be pregnant and there they are (teenagers and even some adults) who can easily get pregnant, just decide to either abort or in this case throw the new born baby down the rubbish chute. What was the mother thinking? Okay maybe that's the problem, she was not thinking.
Even if for one reason or another she can't keep the baby, why can't she put the baby up for adoption? There are o many couples who totally can't have a kid on their own and depend on adoption. Why does she have to throw the baby down the rubbish chute. I am just thinking how the baby was feeling in the last few minutes of his/her life.
Sometimes I also question, why do people who do not want kids can easily get one while people who truly wants one cant have it. Why life is so unfair sometimes? Why are they more deserving than we are? Aren't children God's give to people? So why are they given such important gifts when they have done so many bad things? Why are they given such gifts when they dont want it?
Then again who am I to judge them. Perhaps God feels that I am more worse off than these people are. Perhaps, He feels that I am strong that is why He tests me in such a way. God, please listen to my prayers. I am not as strong as you think I am. I am weak. Haven't you seen or heard the number of times I have cried over your tests? Despite my sometimes wavering faith, I continue to pray to you and continue to believe in the miracles you can create.
2 comments:
Its so sad to read articles like this. It always makes me feel sad to know there are abandoned or abused babies around.
i know you feel that your journey is long... but hang in there.. i am sure you will overcome and become a mother soon. And when you become a mother, you will become a very wonderful mom. Coz, your love and sacrifices for your child began before conception.. :)
Oh thanks so much dear...
I appreciate that someone shares my sentiments too. I feel that my journey has been a long and arduous one.
I hope that I will be a good mother one day. N you are right, if I do become a mother, I will love the baby/babies with unconditional love
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