At 12dp3dt / 15dpo, I am strating to lose all signs of early pregnancy. Am I losing that glimmer of hope? Maybe. I just had an outburst after talking to hubby on the phone. Didnt even mention anything about the upcoming results. We just chatted and talked about why he hadn't called the whole day. I wasn't upset with him or anything. I don't know. It is just that just before we hang up, I just felt so sad. LIke I have not done enough for him. LIke I am not good enough. Like he deserves better.
You know how much he had to sacrifice to allow me to be a Stay AT Home Wife and if this fails, what's next? What do I have to look forward to? Am I ready for it to fail? NO. But have I prepared for the worst? Probably. Will I be upset if the results is not in my favour? Definitely. Will I be able to stand back up? I am not sure.
Sorry people... I am feeling really down today. I am just not feeling it anymore. Call it "Mother's Instinct" but I just don't feel it.
You know how much he had to sacrifice to allow me to be a Stay AT Home Wife and if this fails, what's next? What do I have to look forward to? Am I ready for it to fail? NO. But have I prepared for the worst? Probably. Will I be upset if the results is not in my favour? Definitely. Will I be able to stand back up? I am not sure.
Sorry people... I am feeling really down today. I am just not feeling it anymore. Call it "Mother's Instinct" but I just don't feel it.
2 comments:
I hope your feelings are just worry and there will still be a BFP waiting for you! I know the stress of waiting has to be overwhelming. Hang in there!
Stacey,
I really appreciate you coming back to check on me. You have been a wonderful online friend despite me not knowing who you really are.
Thanks for your constant support.
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